The Girl Who Was Afraid To Be by UntamedUnwanted, literature
Literature
The Girl Who Was Afraid To Be
She speaks to me fondly
of passions and talents,
of guitars and stars,
with such breathless intensity
then stops short and
apologises
for speaking at all.
All because somewhere in her life,
someone she loved broke her heart
by ignoring
her beautiful words
and telling her to
shut up,
keep it down,
nobody cares.
People aren’t born sad.
We make them that way.
I can't stand her,
The girl in the mirror.
She's me, but not me.
She's the girl the world sees,
Happy and always laughing,
Always kind and polite,
As friendly as she needs to be.
That's not me.
I'm sad and feel like crying,
Kind to only the people I know and like
Faking friendliness to strangers when I have to.
I can't stand her,
The girl in the mirror.
She's annoying with all she pretends to be.
I want to be someone else.
I'm tired of the constant fights with her,
She always wins.
So I take it out on her when I'm alone,
And no one can stop me.
I'm my own worst enemy,
You see.
Mentally beating myself up,
At first,
Try
'You're so skinny!'
'You don't need to lose weight!'
'You look great!'
Lies all lies. I know the truth. Too many pounds here, too many there. Hips, stomach, butt
I want it all gone. I need it to be gone. Eat less, exercise more it's such a simple problem to fix.
So I eat when I need to. Doesn't even need to be everyday. It's usually something small. Carrots, celery, a handful of nuts It's just enough to get me through the day.
You want to know my daily routine? Fine.
I run a few miles everyday. It took some time to get used to it, but I had to adjust to reach my goal.
No one else knows I do it. I wake in the wee h
When I look
Upon the pain
And mistakes
Of my past,
I feel so sad
And so guilty
But at the same time
I feel happy.
Because those mistakes
Made me who I am
They let me know the
People I know now.
Those mistakes
Showed me what was right
And what was wrong.
My mistakes still haunt me
But if I had the option
To go back
And make them never happen,
I wouldn't.
Because I am happy
With what I have done.
The good and the bad.
'It's For The Best' by PleasurelyPainful, literature
Literature
'It's For The Best'
Maybe I do still love you
Maybe I should stop
Maybe I should forget everything
Forget
Promises
Pictures
Letters
Erase it all
Bury It
Where no one can open it
Ever Again
If that's what it would take
I'd rather be dead
You're Still My Best Friend
That's What Matters
Right?
You broke down that night, confessing how happy you were to have me as a best friend.
I had to
Smile
Bite My Lip
Repress The Tears
And Act Like It Didn't Hurt
Knowing that's all we can ever be
Until I admitted to myself
'It's For The Best'
Desire for the Blade by PleasurelyPainful, literature
Literature
Desire for the Blade
I don't want to
But I still
Feel it there
Yearning
Pleading
Begging
Crawling beneath my skin
Endless calling
As I feel the tears
Start to escape
I want to weep
Another way
Through simple
Intricate slices
Crimson drops
Flowing down
Paper skin
Until it all needs to be
Stitched back together
She's not a perfect girl
But she never pretended to be
She's not a size 0 blonde
With perfect complexion
But she never wanted to be
She's not the most popular
The prettiest or smartest
The best dressed
Or the skinniest
But she never asked to be
She doesn't always get things right
She sometimes chooses wrong
Sometimes you offer your opinion
But she never asked for it
She follows her heart
And she follows her dreams
She might not always get what she wants
But she always tries to suceed
This is who I amI cant change. Ive tried
Im the girl who laughs too loud
With the jeans that will never fit quite right
Baggy because shes ashamed of how she looks.
Yet she has no problems walking around in pajamas that went out of style last year.
This is who I amIll never have the gorgeous hair
Its always in disarraya mess she doesnt know what to do with.
Looks like she always just rolled out of bed and stepped out into the world
Smelling like vanilla and conditioner.
And shell sm
I'm The Girl With No Name by doorfromheaven, literature
Literature
I'm The Girl With No Name
I drew a heart and wrote your name
And said "Forever" in fancy letters on top of the page.
But you never saw it before. I had no intention of showing you
Back then you didn't even know my name.
You were the star in high school
I watched them swoon but never love you.
Because they couldn't love you
I loved you
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